“Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again but expecting different results.” ~R.M. Brown
It occurred to me this week that a lot of my job-related stress has to do with being stressed by the fact that I am stressed by my job. And so on, in a great spiral of doom. Every week I get more tired and more and more stressed about how tired and stressed I am. Every day I say, I’ll have energy this evening when I get home, and I’ll do ABC. I won’t be tired this weekend and I’ll do XYZ. But saying that doesn’t make me less tired, it accomplishes nothing except to wind me tighter and tighter every week into my little ball of exhaustion and resentment. If I change how I feel about my job, there’s really nothing wrong with the job itself. And thinking about it a little more, I realized that self-induced stress aside, the underlying frustration with my job is that it uses my best energy times, and then I don’t feel up to doing the things I want to do in my off time.
I’m going to try an experiment for July. Something drastic is called for in terms of my mental health, so for the month of July I am going to run to the beach and back (3 mi) every day. I’m taking my best energy time back for myself. I’m going to get up a little earlier, maybe go to work a little later, and run in the mornings, maybe a little sketching or piano if I have time. And It might turn out that I hate this experiment, but it can hardly fail to have different results.
Anyone want to do something drastic with me?
I haven’t participated in Illustration Friday in…gosh, years. Oh, how I’ve missed you! Hope to see you again regularly.
Do I look like a FREAKIN’ people person?
Too much people time. Too little energy. Doing the same thing every day and not getting different results. Improving the situation: photo walk. AND!!! An actual illustration for Illustration Friday. Even better.
Looking for yellow…
Camp Pendleton Mud Run
- Instead of waiting on the porch while the trash cans were brought in like she was supposed to, Somebody (ok, it was Raven) went to investigate that black-and-white critter under the hedge, requiring a de-skunking bath at 5:00 AM. She considered the bath worse punishment than the skunking.
- I have read 44 books so far this year. That could explain why I am having trouble getting anything done around here.
- Saturday I ran the Camp Pendleton Mud Run with a team of coworkers I barely know. I was saved from my fears of slowing down the team by one other person, and therefore I had a great time. There is a nasty scrape on my elbow that I have no idea how I got, and I can’t decide if I should wash or toss my shoes.
- I am going to have to delete Plants vs. Zombies from my phone, I told myself I would be able to stop playing after finishing the level but it just isn’t true. I finished all the levels, then found there were 46 Achievements and 39 Trophies I can win.
May your week be free from skunks and zombies!
Frogs of Madrona Marsh
It is always kind of a shock to find out that Real Me was not able to accomplish the to-do list I gave to Fantasy Me for the weekend. However, A+ for regaining some momentum, in particular the shooting AND posting of photos.
I edited yesterday’s photos this afternoon. Here’s the gallery! I haven’t quite sorted out my photography site–I’m not sure how to link directly to the album, and the template doesn’t allow comments on pictures. However, better done than perfect, if I wait until I get it right even Fantasy Me will have died of old age.
Tiny frog, Madrona Marsh
I can’t figure out how a 6 mile run and a photo outing to Madrona Marsh took up the entire day, but they did. I really needed both of them though…
Well, pretty good overall this afternoon–some laundry, some weeding/mulching, the last hour of My Fair Lady, and a little art. I added a mermaid collage to my book for the Mermaid Circus workshop. She went through a VERY ugly phase, but eventually arrived at Not Too Bad.
A+ for getting the ball rolling today.
The State of the Garden
Well, pretty good start. I spent a couple of hours weeding, I finished the hellstrip but barely made a dent in the garden. I took a little nap, cleaned the bathroom sinks, and the appliance guys came with our new dishwasher. Cons: a discouraging amount of weeds. Pros: new dishwasher!
I am working on a theory about to-do lists causing mental illness. My mental illness, anyhow. Without my to-do lists I lie around and read and then freak out about wasting my life. With my to-do lists, I have panic attacks and try to do everything and finish nothing. I haven’t worked out the solution to that one yet.
Anyhow, somehow recently I’ve mashed it all together into a big ball of crazy, where I more or less just walk around wringing my hands and then go check Pinterest. Luckily! this is why I started this blog. I hereby announce a weekend of productivity and purposeful relaxation, and the documenting of my productivity and relaxing. Feel free to join me.
- Socializing (I’m an introvert, it counts.)
Productive, Double Points
- Art projects
- Playing the piano
- Photo outings
Productive, Triple Points
- Wading in the ocean
- The Internet, except class videos
- ‘Organizing’ my computer files
- Reading more than 2 books
- Scrubbing grout with a toothbrush